I Don't Really Know What To Do

I haven’t been on here in a while, but I’m not sure what to do. I’m having horrible anxiety attacks and anxiety. Like, over the years I’ve tried everything, medicine, meditation, I’ve been to a psychiatrist and a therapist, all of that. I’ve been super stressed, and I know stress causes anxiety and depression, so I think that’s what’s causing it. I’m on the verge of having one right now. Does anyone have any tips on like natural ways to just calm down? I’ve looked online, but I wanna know what helps you all, if there’s anyone who has anxiety attacks and anxiety. I just feel like I’m running into a brick wall. I can’t get anywhere. I can’t get out of this place I’m in, I feel stuck. I have these goals that I feel like I’m not gonna achieve. I feel like I’m losing control of everything and I’m losing everyone I love and care about. I have the urge to do something I haven’t done in a while, and it’s freaking me out. This has been a really fun birthday .-.