I Am Trying Not to Be Sad

I'm trying to not let it bum me out but it does. I have some friends in such wonderful relationships and I can't help but to be a bit jealous. They found these awesome people and I can't. I wish that could be me. That never really has been me. I always wind up with duds. Either they turn out to be assholes, I care about them more than they do me or I get left behind for someone else.

I give up. The towel has been thrown in.