I Have Mental Disorders

It took the doctors a few years to diagnose me with Psychopathy. But yeah, I have it & in a lot of other people, it's hard to spot but in my rare case I've shown ( sometimes ) the traits of it. Even when I was little I showed the traits of a disturbed child. I still have dark thoughts too. I've never really told anyone any of them but I think I'm more open to it now. My Uncle is trying to find some sort of help for that. It can straight up come out. I've had mental break downs that I can't control & that can get dangerous for me & the people around me. It's kinda like my mind shuts down. I also have Pdsd. My Uncle feels bad cause ( as he's said ) he wasn't there when I was smaller but he still wonders what happened to me to get me up to his mental state. He said it's not my fault either. I already told him this but since it contributes to the Pdsd, I'll say it. When I was 13 there was a shooting & I was one of the people standing there when the shooter killed himself cause he didn't wanna go to prison I guess. I'll never forget that image. I've gotten beaten pretty bad a few times by my mom. Like when she stabbed me in the knee. Anyway, that's my story of why I have this mental diamage & illness.