I Am Not Loved In My Family
i been trying to come to terms with it but it leaves me bitter. the only to describe the relation ship is that if every one are pizzas and sides and im the optional sauce that everyone throws away. they all push me away and leave me out. if i miss out i get given the same damn line of "next time" or when i cry saying it is unfair im always told to stop being selfish or stop being a spoilt brat. yet when any of my cousins who are mostly older than me do it, nothing is said they get what they want.
when im upset from anything im told to be quiet and grow up its been like that as long as i can remeber. and again pushed away. but my brothers get comforted over the smallest little things. when my parents decide to do a movie night with us my brothers cuddle up and im pushed away on to the other sofa.
other from my nan and grandad i cant remember a single one of them actually showing me anykind of love or kind emotion unless it makes them look good to others.
when im upset from anything im told to be quiet and grow up its been like that as long as i can remeber. and again pushed away. but my brothers get comforted over the smallest little things. when my parents decide to do a movie night with us my brothers cuddle up and im pushed away on to the other sofa.
other from my nan and grandad i cant remember a single one of them actually showing me anykind of love or kind emotion unless it makes them look good to others.
