I Am Not Loved In My Family

i been trying to come to terms with it but it leaves me bitter. the only to describe the relation ship is that if every one are pizzas and sides and im the optional sauce that everyone throws away. they all push me away and leave me out. if i miss out i get given the same damn line of "next time" or when i cry saying it is unfair im always told to stop being selfish or stop being a spoilt brat. yet when any of my cousins who are mostly older than me do it, nothing is said they get what they want.

when im upset from anything im told to be quiet and grow up its been like that as long as i can remeber. and again pushed away. but my brothers get comforted over the smallest little things. when my parents decide to do a movie night with us my brothers cuddle up and im pushed away on to the other sofa.

other from my nan and grandad i cant remember a single one of them actually showing me anykind of love or kind emotion unless it makes them look good to others.

Carissimi · F

It happened to me too, but beatings as well. It’s a terrible thing to do to a child. I feel for you. To feel unloved and unwanted is a terrible burden to bear, and I don’t know what to tell you. I just had to bear it, but maybe you have good friends and relatives who care for you. I hope so. Just know one thing. It’s NOT you! It’s them. There is nothing unlovable about you, you are just unlucky with the parents you were born to. Believe in yourself, even when it hurts so bad. That will be your saving grace to know it’s not you, and to believe you are worthy of love.