I Am Married But Lonely

I have everything, a home, a job, a husband, children, a dog, a great personality, good self esteem, and friends and family who love me, but yet I feel so utterly alone. I'm the happy one at work with the loud laugh that gets her in trouble, the one everyone connects with right away, but I still feel like know body really knows me. I just want to be loved back as much as I put in and what happens? I get taken advantage of. Its my curse. He did it at work. Took advantage of my loneliness to get his pleasure, than betrayed me. Then I met him. I thought he was the one.I still do. My twin flame. He swept me off my feet, as I thought I him. I knew it would be hard living so far away. For 2 months we were engulfed with each other. Then things changed. He said we need to slow down. I'm more lonely than I was before, to ease my loneliness I connect with other men. To have that feeling. Some fizzle, but now there are two that have interested me and what happens...they too seem distant. I don't even want a fairy tail love. I want someone to talk to, share interests, do things together, laugh and have fun together, to comfort each other, hold each other, hold hands, kisses, forehead kisses, sharing dreams....Is this to much to ask from the universe. Or is he really the one and the universe is testing my patience...either way...i'm more lonelier that ever....