I Am Posting A Thought For Today
Today......... I was good and still am in many ways but.......The course of my life began on this day. The core issues and betrayal were set in motion. Such a special day that one person, due to her insecurities and illness could not appreciate the gift given to her. It's been years now, and time has moved on. Life has given me many blessings and many life experiences I would not wish on anyone. I know now because I have worked on many things and I have learned forgiveness, compassion, unconditional love, being humble, being joyful, awareness and my list goes on and on. Those have got me where I am now. I am in a good place, but the past pain cannot go away completely.
I am feeling such deep hurt, deep sadness, but I know where it comes from. Today is one of those special days we all have but mine never was.
The people have been great all day. Text, facebook postings, messages, notes on my desk, little girls yelling in their baby talk, a bouquet of roses, I am blessed. I am doing much better today then years ago, but I guess I am not totally over it.
The day reminds me of fake people. I prefer real people. The day will go and I will move on. I found a quote 3 years ago. I try to use that on this day but it's difficult. It's easier for me to advise someone to use it for themselves than for me to use it.
I know that I will not distract from what I feel nor ignore it. I will let it all hit me full force and grow from it. Next year won't be so difficult. But right now, I wish for a hug and no words....... just quiet as I process and let this all go away. 😢
I am feeling such deep hurt, deep sadness, but I know where it comes from. Today is one of those special days we all have but mine never was.
The people have been great all day. Text, facebook postings, messages, notes on my desk, little girls yelling in their baby talk, a bouquet of roses, I am blessed. I am doing much better today then years ago, but I guess I am not totally over it.
The day reminds me of fake people. I prefer real people. The day will go and I will move on. I found a quote 3 years ago. I try to use that on this day but it's difficult. It's easier for me to advise someone to use it for themselves than for me to use it.
I know that I will not distract from what I feel nor ignore it. I will let it all hit me full force and grow from it. Next year won't be so difficult. But right now, I wish for a hug and no words....... just quiet as I process and let this all go away. 😢
