I Believe Punctuality Shows Respect
My ex has been pestering for me nearly a month to hang out with him, and I finally caved and agreed to meet him at a neutral location for coffee, in the early afternoon before I have to go to work. Normally I would've been asleep until late afternoon so that I could survive being awake all night. But out of the goodness of my heart (or pure stupidity-- take your pick) I got up when I would normally be asleep and dragged myself to the chosen meeting place.
This guy was HALF AN HOUR LATE to our meet-up and I was so pissed that when he finally made an appearance, I just kinda stood there and looked at him, rather coldly, body language screaming "pissed off" as he immediately began to issue one excuse after another, instead of simply saying "I'm sorry" or "I messed up." When he finally got around to apologizing, I just said "It's fine" and uncrossed my arms, even going so far as to hug him when he indicated that he wanted a hug. After all, it brings me absolutely no pleasure to have a guy prostrate himself before me or beg for forgiveness...I'm just not into that. All I wanted was a simple acknowledgement that he wasted my time and then we could move on.
We then sat down and chatted for an hour. He complimented my appearance (which was casual at best since I wore jeans and a hoodie) and told me about his work. I listened with rapt attention and then he wanted me to check out his truck and his four-wheeler, which was admittedly nice, and I said so. We parted ways shortly after that, but he wanted to meet up again and I made no promises, simply replying "If I can find time but...you know, been so busy..."
Grrrr what I need to do is tell him to just back off and don't contact me ever again. Sure, we're on good terms in an almost-friends sort of way, but it's just become too awkward to be around him since we broke up, and I'm not interested in rekindling our relationship for a second time (we dated twice). I did tell him before we parted ways that I wasn't interested in being in a relationship, that I just wanted to remain single. He looked disappointed so hopefully I got my message across. Maybe. But he did want to meet up again, so maybe not. Ughhhhh why am I so [i]passive[/i]? I need to man up and just tell him exactly what's on my mind. So annoyed with myself right now.
And I still gotta get ready for work but needed to rant. I'm tired. 😭
This guy was HALF AN HOUR LATE to our meet-up and I was so pissed that when he finally made an appearance, I just kinda stood there and looked at him, rather coldly, body language screaming "pissed off" as he immediately began to issue one excuse after another, instead of simply saying "I'm sorry" or "I messed up." When he finally got around to apologizing, I just said "It's fine" and uncrossed my arms, even going so far as to hug him when he indicated that he wanted a hug. After all, it brings me absolutely no pleasure to have a guy prostrate himself before me or beg for forgiveness...I'm just not into that. All I wanted was a simple acknowledgement that he wasted my time and then we could move on.
We then sat down and chatted for an hour. He complimented my appearance (which was casual at best since I wore jeans and a hoodie) and told me about his work. I listened with rapt attention and then he wanted me to check out his truck and his four-wheeler, which was admittedly nice, and I said so. We parted ways shortly after that, but he wanted to meet up again and I made no promises, simply replying "If I can find time but...you know, been so busy..."
Grrrr what I need to do is tell him to just back off and don't contact me ever again. Sure, we're on good terms in an almost-friends sort of way, but it's just become too awkward to be around him since we broke up, and I'm not interested in rekindling our relationship for a second time (we dated twice). I did tell him before we parted ways that I wasn't interested in being in a relationship, that I just wanted to remain single. He looked disappointed so hopefully I got my message across. Maybe. But he did want to meet up again, so maybe not. Ughhhhh why am I so [i]passive[/i]? I need to man up and just tell him exactly what's on my mind. So annoyed with myself right now.
And I still gotta get ready for work but needed to rant. I'm tired. 😭
