I Am Seeking Inner Peace

This is liberating. I am not sure if I am fully healed enough to feel validated on my own. But sometimes I get tired of rationalising or explaining to people about my divorce, why I left or how I chose my ex-husband in the first place.

Interestingly, while I was in the process of the divorce last year, I felt the need to "prove" to people why my divorce is justified or a reason good enough to divorce. This is the harm or toxicity of society as well. People question our personal decisions. People question your thought process in whether you have exhausted all resources to "save" the marriage. A lot of times, some people I know assume you are of a generation that take the marriage institution for granted. They assume that you are "hasty" and "impulsive" in your decisions. At the end of the day, people should really mind their own business unless someone request otherwise.

This year, as I am getting further and further from the pains of divorce, I find that I do not need to reason with people about my story. I do not need the validation from anyone or any consolation. Because deep down, I know my story better than anyone. I know the path I so bravely carved out. I know the pain, the lessons and the healing I gained from my thought process. I strongly sense the relief, lightness and liberation from my divorce. Enough for me to celebrate my small and big victories silently.