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I Am Seeking Inner Peace

[i]"Instead of asking
why they left,

now I ask.
what beauty will I create
in the space they no longer
occupy?"
[/i]
- Rudy Francisco

A lot of times, after a break up or divorce, life seems to be put on hold. It would seem life is a standstill. But really, it is just one aspect of your life that is put on hold; the loss of a relationship. The other parts of life should still move on. I know it is easier said than done.

However, I would like to say that when I maintain a kind of normalcy for my kid, it helped me ALOT. Despite the effort on my part to keep life safe and secure for my kid, I want to say that my son was the one who kept me grounded and pushed me to sanity instead. Through my kid, I found new friendships with like-minded people in my community. Through him, I keep myself in check and focus on what is important for both of us. Through my love for him, I laugh, smile and seemed to be enjoying life all over again.

I'd also like to applaud my friend (whom I wrote about earlier). I met her earlier yesterday and told her the same. She seems to be making the effort to keep from losing herself; going for my pilates and running class, having lunch dates with friends etc. I hope she creates more beauty in her future life in spite of everything.
firefall · 61-69, M
Strange, when you put it like that. I dont think I've ever initiated any breakup with a lover, but after the break, except for one instance, I've always found the break energising. Grief, too, but certainly not a feeling of being on hold.

I can certainly see how maintaining a front of normalcy would help with it, though - fake it til you make it, so to speak.
firefall · 61-69, M
@majesticsea I assumed, yes, but ... huh, now I'm thinking maybe I'm just shallow. Or maybe it's just because each of those relationships had already died and been grieved over, before the final euthanasia. (Obviously I prefer that idea to the idea I'm just an emotional lightweight, lol)

For me, the grief only rose up when I let it have time to, hence being energized and letting it dribble out in little bites. When I consider my friends & how they've handled it, it's much more as you describe.
majesticsea · 31-35, F
It could be a male thing. I heard somewhere that your brain is wired that way. You box it up to review it later and then you can function. So there is pain or some grieving but it is put aside temporarily and would start seeping out slowly. Haha but it is just my guess.
firefall · 61-69, M
@majesticsea Oh, that would make sense, yes; men are taught/born* to be more compartmentalised, or so I've read often enough.

*not taking sides in [i]that[/i] argument 😆

 
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