How important is it that you continue to live in your village?
After you've saved 10% from a few weeks' or months' pay, would you consider renting a flat
within 15 mins walking distance of work?
You could return to your village on week-ends or rostered time-off days, to spend time with family.
In the mean time, with one 8 hr shift per day, perhaps 5 days a week, a young woman still hase enough energu leftover to go to night classes, learn a hobby, join a sailing club and sign on as someone's crew,
join a walking or yoga or self-development class - or any of many thingstthat can help you meet people with simialr interests and make friends.
What do you mean by "need to remain hostile" and why would you need to be?
Behaving a hostile way or anxiously expecting it from others tends to backfire. Most people don't respond well to it.
Being calm, open, warm, respectful and friendly puts others at their ease and predisposes them to feel comfortable about getting to know you.
Remember if people make fun of someone, it says far more about them than their target.
The best responses are to ignore the remarks as though you'd never heard them,
or give an enigmatic smile,
or say "that's interesting" in a tone of absolute boredom and disinterest
and then turn immediately to whatever else needs doing on the job.
If we let go of ego, no insult can affect us.
Hospitals can often be toxic for staff. The work cultures are an outmoded inheritance from the days of miltary hositals -- the days of Florence Nightingale. The concepts of traige and necessity for a clear chain of command remain, but verbal abuse, hazing, sexist behaviours, and "political" manouvering for favours, impunity or power, all these need to become obsolite because they don't just sap moral, they interfer with effective teamwork and healing the patients.
Despite all that, amongyour fellow nurses there will always be some always some who are innately kind, well-balanced and basically friendly.
Look for them and spend time with them during your breaks as often as possible. Make times to see them outside work.
In the meantime, message me if you like, and we could explore whether we have anything in common that might grow a friendship.
