I'm taking it easy tonight

Tired, blah blah blah. I'm not going to be a superhero at work anymore and will not be accepting call ins. I'm not scanning checkpoints (all of them) anymore either. Even my road supervisor said he doesn't do it all all til the last round. All I have to do is scan 1 every 15 minutes. It's ridiculous. Flying around being super security hasn't gotten me anything except more work. So I'll just be hanging out on here, watching some YouTube maybe, etc. Maybe by being lazy I'll get promoted. No longer worrying about getting fired. I just stopped caring. I even told the boss boss that. They are well aware the job sucks and are lazy too. Done burning myself out. 16.50 an hour in Florida isn't crap anyway. If it was 25 plus then I'd be on it. But it's been 2 years of outstanding performance with no benefit and it's pointless. I only work night security because of social anxiety I can't work at day in the midst of people I just can't, and will not. Would rather be homeless. I don't want a partner. I'm no good for anyone , have no teeth, I'm aging, getting wrinkles, already been divorced 3 times, washed up. I just wanna be happy. And I think minimizing performance at work will help. Because I've really been busting it hard and filling in for call offs etc you know. So now, 2 hours til I leave. What to eat. Ain't got nothing really. Bread and butter I guess. Peanut butter is gone lol. Maybe a salad hey there we go. Anyway *******g jobs man, they consume the hell out of life I swear. And it ain't really the work itself I think it's the lack of incentive and wages that no longer fit the cost of living. It's been going on too long and keeps getting worse and I'm spent.