It was my first day back at work today after two and a half weeks off.
In those two and a half weeks I had one day to rest. The other days were all looking after my in-laws or childcare. On that one day I went to a big hill and climbed it because I felt like I needed to do something positive with my time off.
Today all day I felt like crying because I think... I think I don't have it in me to work right now. My job is to help people find the support they need. But in six months time all the care agencies are going to be out of business because they can't afford their heating bills. Half our team will have left because the salary isn't enough to cope with the stress of the job or keep our own lights on. The government keeps shrugging while the poor die and the living get poorer. There's nowhere to hide from it all, everything that makes my life hard makes the lives of those I support a hundred times harder. I want to do good, I want to protect and support and uplift people, but right now it feels like there's no way to do that and every attempt is doomed to fail.
There is no positive hopeful end to this post or jokey twist. This is the end of the post.
Today all day I felt like crying because I think... I think I don't have it in me to work right now. My job is to help people find the support they need. But in six months time all the care agencies are going to be out of business because they can't afford their heating bills. Half our team will have left because the salary isn't enough to cope with the stress of the job or keep our own lights on. The government keeps shrugging while the poor die and the living get poorer. There's nowhere to hide from it all, everything that makes my life hard makes the lives of those I support a hundred times harder. I want to do good, I want to protect and support and uplift people, but right now it feels like there's no way to do that and every attempt is doomed to fail.
There is no positive hopeful end to this post or jokey twist. This is the end of the post.
