I wrote on a envelope today that since o started doing this job I stopped thinking. I stopped dreaming and I stopped having hope. I've been depressed since one month in. I should have packed it in but my family insisted because it was healthcare I should stick at it. But I'm merely a shadow of the person I was before. All the nice qualities I had have been squashed and beaten out if me. And consequently I'm an emotional wreck that makes people think I'm bipolar. But I know I'm not like this when I'm away from work. Infact When I'm on holiday I'm just normal. Not eccentric. Normal. Does that sound bipolar?
