Do you have some anxiety and guilt when you stand up for yourself?

That probably sounds stupid to most people...

My one manager that doesn't like me does love to blame me and have me clean up after coworkers. Rather than her address the person that makes mistakes and messes then leaves, she makes me fix it. Today she pulled it seven minutes before I clocked out...

I told her no. I said that I would not clean up after coworkers leaving things the way they shouldn't when I don't do that to them.

Now that I'm home chilling, I'm feeling the anxiety creep in. The guilt. Was I rude? Was I too sassy? (Probably yes 😬) Are they gonna fire me? Why don't they like me? Am I not doing a good job?

And this is not the kinda job you worry about losing. I actually deserve better. It's had a negative impact on my health.

Tbh, it's a dumb fecking job.

Yet I'm swimming in the anxiety pond like it's not okay to stick up for myself. I'm feeling guilty because I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I feel like a monumental ass clown for not just doing what she told me to avoid drama.

Anybody else this doofy?