Reallg Not Looking Forward to This

I always have to worry about making sure its not seeping through my clothes or I have spots and I don't sleep comfortably because my mind is always wondering if my sheets are still good and I pop up at least 3 times during the night when I move around in my sleep thinking "oh no!" And I flick the light on and then my heart stops racing, and then sometimes you don't feel it in your sleep and then 3hrs later you have to get up just so you don't have an "oh no" moment. -sigh- being a woman is tough sometimes. Maybe I should think about taking something or getting something that slows how often it comes around. Idk 😔 😟