I don’t derive enjoyment from video games

I hit prestige 3 in cod vanguard and just hit diamond 4 in halo ranked and it’s honestly been well… not really fulfilling. Even when I play story games, I get invested then suffer the withdrawals of having to step away from worlds more beautiful than the ones I live in. There is a sort of meditational calm that comes from gaming, especially when alone. And I don’t really get that anymore. I just get the anxious feeling that I’m wasting time or that I don’t know if I really like it anymore. All the blind wonder that comes from being a child is replaced with the crippling voice of adulthood.