do you find it hard to be selfish ?

Hm, not really, but kinda. I had to cut a lot of people out of my life because they were draining me. But I always put my son first. Yet I still take care of myself. I fall short more often than I'd like with energy and brain power, but there's nothing I can do about it. I give my absolute best. So I don't feel selfish, even though the people I no longer see would say I am.