Don't mind me
I've lived a life full of regrets.
If I hadn't been so boneheaded in my youth, I'd be happier now.
Contrary to popular thinking, life doesn't give you second chances.
You only get one shot. In the moment. That's it.
Everything else is pure luck.
When people say they had a second chance, they didn't. They missed their first shot, then they got lucky.
Everyone's not lucky.
I was not lucky.
The reason I'm aloof from people is that I see them making mistakes that I'd rather not repeat.
I was young and dumb until I hit 30. Then I realized that I didn't have so much time anymore.
You don't want to waste your youth doing stup!d things and being a dvmb fvcking id!ot.
You want to spend your time learning, and growing.
Unfortunately I've seen people in their 50's and 60's even, who haven't learned a thing. Still engaged in meaningless gossips and bickering. Still arguing and fighting with others. Still doing the same dumb sh!t that I used to do when I was 20.
I was presented with a very clear set of options - learn from my mistakes, or die.
When death becomes the alternative, it quickly clears the fog and mist in the head. You achieve clarity, and start to learn real fast.
I need someone in my life who's smarter than me, more intelligent, wiser; who will shine like a candle in the darkness of my ignorance.
I need someone who can think 20 steps ahead, when I can only do 10.
I need someone who can teach me. I'm ready to learn. I will learn fast.
I need someone who can restrain me from anger and foolishness.
I need someone who's better than me in every way possible, who can shape me into the person I need to be, before I meet my maker.
In return I will give them whatever they need.
Now the question is, why would someone who's smarter than me and better than me, want my company?
I don't know.
You can only learn so much from competition until you hit a brick wall. I hit mine a few years ago.
And then you realize that you can learn much faster by coalition.
Life is so much easier when you have someone you can depend on. But if that someone is an id!ot, then God help you both.
He won't.
If I hadn't been so boneheaded in my youth, I'd be happier now.
Contrary to popular thinking, life doesn't give you second chances.
You only get one shot. In the moment. That's it.
Everything else is pure luck.
When people say they had a second chance, they didn't. They missed their first shot, then they got lucky.
Everyone's not lucky.
I was not lucky.
The reason I'm aloof from people is that I see them making mistakes that I'd rather not repeat.
I was young and dumb until I hit 30. Then I realized that I didn't have so much time anymore.
You don't want to waste your youth doing stup!d things and being a dvmb fvcking id!ot.
You want to spend your time learning, and growing.
Unfortunately I've seen people in their 50's and 60's even, who haven't learned a thing. Still engaged in meaningless gossips and bickering. Still arguing and fighting with others. Still doing the same dumb sh!t that I used to do when I was 20.
I was presented with a very clear set of options - learn from my mistakes, or die.
When death becomes the alternative, it quickly clears the fog and mist in the head. You achieve clarity, and start to learn real fast.
I need someone in my life who's smarter than me, more intelligent, wiser; who will shine like a candle in the darkness of my ignorance.
I need someone who can think 20 steps ahead, when I can only do 10.
I need someone who can teach me. I'm ready to learn. I will learn fast.
I need someone who can restrain me from anger and foolishness.
I need someone who's better than me in every way possible, who can shape me into the person I need to be, before I meet my maker.
In return I will give them whatever they need.
Now the question is, why would someone who's smarter than me and better than me, want my company?
I don't know.
You can only learn so much from competition until you hit a brick wall. I hit mine a few years ago.
And then you realize that you can learn much faster by coalition.
Life is so much easier when you have someone you can depend on. But if that someone is an id!ot, then God help you both.
He won't.
31-35, M
