I'm finding it difficult to open up to anyone at the moment.. If honest I'm lost as to what to do. I did try counselling a while back but I found it didn't help at all but made me worse. I have asked the doctor for anti depressants. I managed over 20 years without them and relied on self care. Which worked. And now I'm so lost I dont know where to turn. Lockdown broke my routine. It broke my mind.