How do you tell how you're doing?

At some points I feel on top of the world.
At other times I find the idea of suicide boring & empty, yet life is not much of an alternative.

It feels like a winter night in my soul. At this point I'm numb & waiting for whatever happens at the end of whenever you get this cold.

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Scarfface · 46-50, M

Compare yourself to other situations, if it could be worse then in my opinion you are doing ok. Maybe it's not perfect, maybe it's not fair. If you are well, safe, warm and not hungry you can slowly improve things for yourself.

Winterwanderer · 26-30, M

@Scarfface that's complicated, cause in some ways, things are the worst they've ever been, in others, far greater.

Sometimes I feel two things at once.

Scarfface · 46-50, M

@Winterwanderer this is true for me too. I think like this.. you can't enjoy the good bits if there was no bad bits because you wouldn't know the difference.
Answering your original question I think you are doing ok to be seeing that things can be good 👍