crushes.......
my 12 year old niece and I have a standing sleepover on Fridays.
the past two Fridays she has asked me...."do you have any crushes?"
and I know that means she wants me to ask who hers are. so last week, I asked, and she told me.
and then she asked me again this week...
for the first time in a long time, I have zero crushes. zero interests. zero everything.
she asked me why Im "boring".
I'd like to say, "trauma, kid.....trauma."
it hurts.
but we laughed it off.
I grew up with my mom treating me like an adult at 12. including moods and finances and I worried as much as an adult would. I grew up too fast and it affected me long term.
My niece deserves the childhood I didnt have. so I am just here to listen to her.
she is 12. my mom is 66. my nieces mom is AWOL. and then theres me, the 32 year old childless aunt.
a friday is the least I can do.
the past two Fridays she has asked me...."do you have any crushes?"
and I know that means she wants me to ask who hers are. so last week, I asked, and she told me.
and then she asked me again this week...
for the first time in a long time, I have zero crushes. zero interests. zero everything.
she asked me why Im "boring".
I'd like to say, "trauma, kid.....trauma."
it hurts.
but we laughed it off.
I grew up with my mom treating me like an adult at 12. including moods and finances and I worried as much as an adult would. I grew up too fast and it affected me long term.
My niece deserves the childhood I didnt have. so I am just here to listen to her.
she is 12. my mom is 66. my nieces mom is AWOL. and then theres me, the 32 year old childless aunt.
a friday is the least I can do.
31-35, F
