Starting to consider that I have a form of body dysmorphia

In fact I definitely do by definition. I tend to think I'm ugly, I don't apply that adjective to other people but I hate how I look most of the time. To the point where it will really affect my mood and make me feel sad. Really affects my self esteem, if other people tell me the opposite I either don't believe it or I think they're just being nice. I do have times where I feel I look good but I have that core belief still residing internally. Like people will look at me and think "aw he's trying regardless of how he looks".

It sucks, I feel like I don't even wanna turn up to dates sometimes because I feel like if they look dissapointed it'll really hurt. I hate having my picture taken by other people because of it. Anyway just venting and realising.

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SW-User

That's very difficult.. 😐
Does it come from some really bad experience you had where you felt really ugly, maybe when you were younger or a child? I mean maybe you were compared with others or were critized by your looks, by your parents? Or other children? Reviewing your past may help. And trying to accept yourself in the present.. Because liking takes a step forward.

You aren't ugly.... 🙉... . And I don't say it to be nice haha.

I tend to have a different perspective about myself. Like I like how I am, but I know, very well that people have different tastes so I've wondered if certain people really liked me or, like you say, just tried to be nice to me. 🙂
I heard when I was a child that other kids said I was the ugliest girl in the school, so that affected me during those childhood years, didn't want to even look at myself in the mirror..

Ryannnnnn · 31-35, M

@SW-User Maybe but I dunno really. Just always felt that way?.

SW-User

@Ryannnnnn there's always a reason, hope you feel better about yourself

Ryannnnnn · 31-35, M

@SW-User Yeah same I'm probs gonna start working out again, that'll put me in a more positive place.