Im a step away from giving up....

@HellsBelle I think I've waited long enough. It just hurts.

@Rilyn you cant predict the future. one moment may change it all. but it is wrong to choose the ending moment. that is not for us to decide. the universe still needs you.

@HellsBelle Give me a true instance in which this "universe" needs me?

But you are right. I dont predict only experience

@Rilyn if there is someone out there, needing your type of love...but you end yourself before they meet you.....you have robbed them of love. if there is someone out there, feeling how you do, and your words to them could save them...but you end yourself.... they are alone now too. i dont know if you have family or siblings...but if a sibling has a baby, dont you want to meet them? we need to stick together. not disappear. every step, breath, and smile, has an impact. the very smallest thing, matters.

@HellsBelle You're sweet and I see what you mean but the way I see it, the way things played out is unbelievable so far.

@Rilyn I understand... it was for me as well. but why not try a few things first. nothing to lose, right? life is not technically that restricting. why not move to a new area? new state or country? if you think you cant afford it, find places where the money conversion rate gives you more money. do some things on your bucket list. hike. go play with dogs at a shelter. just try more things before its over. the sunshine is too nice to leave.

@HellsBelle Come for a night out with me xD
I cant move out, I'm expected for learning so I need to be present. I'll have to figure something out when I get some free time.

@Rilyn lol I wish. something tells me you are young, and I might not be able to relate much

@HellsBelle 30 years young. I'm not as bad as one initially thinks.

@Rilyn I didnt think you were bad at all. it was the "xD" for me. but I should have know that was our generation and not younger.

@HellsBelle I'm very direct so it might give off an older vibe I dont know