The biggest challenge to my faith is the seeming randomness of everything.

I've tried to make sense of it. For a long time I told myself that the pain purifies us and those that don't suffer remain angry toddlers all their life. The pain just intensifies and is seemingly never ending. My faith is in question these days as well.

Age old questions. I remember seeing TV news footage many years ago of the Ethiopian famine where an emaciated mother with her empty breasts, clutched her baby and cried out in a weak voice, 'Jesus, help me!' over and over. I still have tears as I think about that image.

As one of those who 'prosper' in a material sense (I lack no essential thing and have many non-essentials) I suppose the thing I have to ask before God is: What is my responsibility in handling my comparative wealth so that others don't suffer? I am not God and am not responsible for the whole world, but only those things he has given into my stewardship. The rest I have to leave to others for their conscience.

As for the 'monsters', I'm with David. The great thing about the Psalms is that they show the whole gamut of human emotion. A lot of modern church 'worship' is about feeling good, confident in the fact of God's goodness and being upbeat. That is important. But so is not denying the real world challenges of poverty, injustice and plain evil which blights our world. I want to know why my friend died on Monday with COVID when he did so much good. I am not angry, but I'm not going to pretend I can be happy. I need to express that to God as well.

The answer I have come to is that this side of Glory there will be many things that confuse and defeat our thinking. We do what we can where we are in prayerful submission. In Gory, to be honest, I doubt it will matter.

You shouldn't worry too much about bodies human its the soul that lives forever

Something that makes you think is how someone who was born with little or nothing grows up to create a successful and prosperous life, their struggles seemed to have made them stronger & more motivated to overcome their adversities. And some of those who were born with a golden spoon in their mouth take what they have inherited without working for their wealth and fame piss everything away before they reach middle age. It makes me think that there are other ways to measure wealth than just money.