my best friend and i had very serious convos today

we talked for like 4 hours straight. i was telling her that i can’t really see myself being in a long term relationship. and she said she can see it but it’s rare that a guy likes how “aggressive” and “non-negotiable” i am. this always gets me so mad. literally everyone says this to me. just because i don’t tolerate bullshit from men and that i’m not submissive, apparently that’s a turn off. well, i hope it is. cuz i don’t want a weak guy who needs to feel in power and controls me. i was surrounded with men like that my whole life and i’ll never tolerate it that in a loving relationship.

i can’t choose who i’m related to. but i can choose who i wanna spend the rest of my life with and raise children with. i will NOT settle for anything less than what i deserve. i will never let a man control or hurt me again. if he tries to, it’s done. i don’t give second chances anymore. if a man is too weak to live up to those standards, i don’t want him.