i wish i had a time machine..... do you?

that's his problem and i am sorry you are and have been experiencing that. but even though he is your dad, he is just another person. a person that makes mistakes, a person that is lost. it's time for you my friend, to find your way and forgive your father and let go of him,forgiveness is not a gift for your father, but a gift to yourself so you won't be hurting so much anymore from anger or hatred. you don't need a father figure, you can take inspiration and motivation from other people. people that have found their way, people that are successful. there are so many things in this life that can make you happy and feel good,don't give up. i have had bad experiences too and i have been in the darkness many times but i promise you my friend, there is light out there, don't deny it , don't doubt it. you have to walk towards it and be open to it and absorb it. make your life good. often our life sucks because we allow it to.

@mistywilloww: i cant forgive him, not after wut he did to me, he dropped me on my head and gave me brain damage and memory loss, i hardly read 5 grade level books even though i have to look up meaning of words. i never give up before i always did everything i could do but im getting older and im not getting better