I never had a calling...

I was 17 senior and everyone in the cafeteria in my grade... i swear had applied for college except me. Had all their forms... I didnt understand. I literally was searching for those who werent. But I was the only one at my school and I felt so miserable and left out because I knew I wasnt going to make it. Then I fell into depression and never graduated. I never had a calling.

I feel sad all of a sudden... because I remember everyone had someone and I had no one to rely on.

Majority of my life. Any play I was in growing up as a kid... I was so hurt because no one came to watch me. You know that one kid who looks into the audience and cant find their parents. That was me. Because no one showed up.

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SW-User

I have been through worst. Infact people who i studied with from kindergarten to highschool left me to dry out. I once had to give an entrance or sats exam. They didn't tell me about the study material nor the course about it. I ended up giving the exam with only my common sense. I was chosen for those limited seats. That day i realised that i never had a real friend no matter i know them since past 20 years or more. I am just like a Wolverine or John wick lonely and no love.

ScarletWitch · 26-30, F

@SW-User not sure if worse. I grew up with the same people... and didnt have a best friend. Kidnergarden til hs as well.