I never had a calling...

I was 17 senior and everyone in the cafeteria in my grade... i swear had applied for college except me. Had all their forms... I didnt understand. I literally was searching for those who werent. But I was the only one at my school and I felt so miserable and left out because I knew I wasnt going to make it. Then I fell into depression and never graduated. I never had a calling.

I feel sad all of a sudden... because I remember everyone had someone and I had no one to rely on.

Majority of my life. Any play I was in growing up as a kid... I was so hurt because no one came to watch me. You know that one kid who looks into the audience and cant find their parents. That was me. Because no one showed up.