Is it bad that I'm kind of a fan of a druglord, one of the first druglords in Mexico, he ruled his empire without violence and unnecessary attention

I know it's bad but he was the man, he studied international business just like me, and his cartel was just like an enterprise, I'm not as confident as daring as him, but I wish to be like him some day, I know I will, wanna be just like him, not in the drug sense, you know, just legal stuff, but I wanna make it big, JLH