I need to get high or something

I FEEL stuff. Everything has significance and gravity. Songs that ive listened to a thousand times are bringing me to tears. I weigh every action i take in my head. I dont feel this level of emotion. Not usually. Actually, hardly ever. Everything has me thinking on a different level. Not higher, not lower, just different. I havent....i dont. Last night i felt a...tear in my head. A split, if you will. It lasted a minute and after i was confused but i felt different. I heard a new voice today. It was a females. At first i thought it was the girl that im sharing a bed with. But she didnt say anything. I was told to “shut the door”. She was visibly confused by my sudden...actions...i guess. We were looking at each other like “what door?” And it turned out to be the screen door outside. I didnt know it was open, neither did she, but this new feminine voice did. Im starting to wonder if shes a new one from the split. A new person, a voice. Shadows. It wasnt like this with the others. Shes subtle and gentle...is she the one responsible for my sensitivity? I cant...deal with this. I cant deal with this