Swan I've missed you

You were my first and always will be my first
I've dreamt of you I together
But I know our future
You'd be broken I'd be ten feet underground
Our children would be dead inside n out
Too much pain too much sorrow too much demise
Yes it would be perfect too perfect then that tanker burns me to death burns up my children n you burns n breaks you
Stop shhhh it was better this way
😔