Here I am finally in a better place mentally wise
In fact better than f'ing better than I ever ever have been. And then here I am now..
Thinking again.. I guess there are a few things to sort out which I will but it's got my mind a going going going..
Have u ever felt like u r doing so well and bAM something triggers old feelings... Stirs up old thoughts... And u almost feel guilty like ur bad for doing so but can't help it... Feel bad but yet you know it wouldn't be a major set back just need a Lil bit to sort this thing out?
I mean I have had this focus starting Jan 1 this year in manyany areas of my life.. Yeah my thinking is a lot of it.. Being more positive and doing things that will keep taking me in the direction I wanna go. More insight on many things with reading and listening to the people around me and picking up on things bring a fresh new perspective on things.
Idk
I feel blah today... And a Lil depressed.. And for a week now. Not that o have stopped carrying on but IDK not sure how to explain this... But I don't like it.
Too much going on in my head to get shot straight. Reflecting... And all that.. Ugh.
Thinking again.. I guess there are a few things to sort out which I will but it's got my mind a going going going..
Have u ever felt like u r doing so well and bAM something triggers old feelings... Stirs up old thoughts... And u almost feel guilty like ur bad for doing so but can't help it... Feel bad but yet you know it wouldn't be a major set back just need a Lil bit to sort this thing out?
I mean I have had this focus starting Jan 1 this year in manyany areas of my life.. Yeah my thinking is a lot of it.. Being more positive and doing things that will keep taking me in the direction I wanna go. More insight on many things with reading and listening to the people around me and picking up on things bring a fresh new perspective on things.
Idk
I feel blah today... And a Lil depressed.. And for a week now. Not that o have stopped carrying on but IDK not sure how to explain this... But I don't like it.
Too much going on in my head to get shot straight. Reflecting... And all that.. Ugh.
46-50, F
