My cuticle is falling off

Its been black for almost two weeks. Two weeks tomorrow. It still hurts like you wouldn't believe. Want to drop me instantly? Tap my finger. Im out. Now the cuticle has started falling off. Jeeze. Ive only seen people break their own bones in desperation in anime. I never thought id be the one to do something similar. I always thought i was too weak, and lacked resolve to break something in order to execute a desperate move. My finger isn't broken broken. But no doubt its fractured. I have fractured bones before, the pain is the same. My finger looks warped, its still swollen, and now my black cuticle is falling off. Had no idea i was capable of doing this to myself.