Why are you here?

From what? @gmatthewb

@MayaHope My wife's illness mainly and how hopeless I feel. Why are you here?

@gmatthewb well I’m not sure why I am on this website nor on this earth, I’m sorry you are having a tough time 😓

@MayaHope Still searching for your reasons then? I hope you're able to find them one day. I also hope you can make some good friends on this site if you haven't already.

I’m not really that fussed on friends I don’t think

@MayaHope Fair enough. You don't really need a reason to be here I don't think, can just be some place to spend time. As long as your having an okay time.

Thanks, I didn’t mean to sound mean, I just have realised after 38 years that friendship never works out for me.

@MayaHope I didn't think you sounded mean at all. We all have our reasons for why we are the way we are. You've had bad luck when it comes to friendship through your life and that has shaped the person you are now. There is nothing wrong with that, it is just who you are. If anyone is to blame for you sounding mean in anyway it is those people who have let you down over the years and made you have less faith in friendship. You're not the only one who feels that way.

Oh but you end up thinking it must be you really, everyone else can’t be wrong!

@MayaHope Then just think of it as you're unique and that only a select group of people can understand you. I do get it, I'm 10 years older than you and have had similar thoughts I'm sure. I've spent years wondering what is wrong with me. Then I wanted to change how I felt about things and worked hard to do that.

I decided I’m possibly not like most humans and prefer to be in my own

@MayaHope Well, I can understand that as well. I am sorry if I'm bothering you with this. From this little chat you seem like a nice person. I don't see you as mean in anyway.

I’m sure that is not giving you a full picture. I’m a pain in every muscle imaginable!