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es0tericus · 26-30
To be honest, all my life I have struggled to understand how and why anyone would have to gain strength and peace from external ideals. I don't see them as apart from me, nor do I see myself needing to rely on an ideal for both. They're just there, a part of me, always have been and will keep growing as I grow.
I hope the responses here help me understand your feelings better, it's been bothering me for quite a while..
I hope the responses here help me understand your feelings better, it's been bothering me for quite a while..
TessDun · 36-40, F
I am still figuring out as well. I guess it is just about right to believe in something, specially when a person feels weak and powerless. But the worst that can happen, for me, is when everything else does not seem to come together and what I have worked hard on, with all that I’ve got and with all my selfless intentions, would not necessarily fail but would not be given a chance.,, in fate’s most ironic way ( hard to explain- but it is a God-is-laughing-at -my plans kind of experience). It is in this time where I wish I should have believed fully in myself, taken full responsibility, so when everything else fails, I would feel lesser pain knowing I did my best, than being resentful and hateful for feeling abandoned or worst feeling laughed at by God. This kind of thinking is not psychologically healthy as well [es0tericus]