Do you ever wonder about the state of things when entropy has nothing left to do?

At that point, when the chaos has gone as far as it can, I think everything sort of flatlines. There's an eerie silence and calm. This is what happens when either one person has completely destroyed the other, or one person has realized that they will be destroyed if they don't take a step back and either walk away, or keep quiet for a while and do what they have to do to keep the peace until they've gotten themselves into a position where they can deal with the other person from a position of strength. And when that happens, the other person had better watch out.

At least, that's what happens with me. Right now the last scenario is the one happening. What will happen after I've found out what I'm capable of and managed to do it, is anyone's guess.

I know, there comes a time when it's just not worth it anymore, but I personally haven't reached that point yet. I still have way too much invested, and all I can do is just try to be true to myself.

Sorry for the long answer, and the vagueness, but that's where I'm at right now.