how to end this

Karma is befalling on me.long confession,short.I met this attractive man in a wedding,he gave me hint,i was in.As i didn't have a friend,my need to be social lead me into an affair. Me and hubby were having disputes those times,so i feel pleased in avenging him.Alright cheating isn't big deal nowdays,but the following may take me to hell.i used to call my new bf at night in a burkha so as to hide him from in laws and neighbours,and we either gave sleeping pills to my husband or sniff him chloroform.One day mother in law caught us, but i blackmalied her to book her in a false dowry case which is a strict law in my nation,and we continued our misdeeds.My bf having inhumane nature,trapped me in doing so even when i was with my partner on vacations
outside. As lust is one of the 7 mortal sins,me and my hubby are both facing consequencies,i got women health problems,and other issues,while pills gave my husband various after side effects.That prick is blackmailing me from ending the affair.I live in constant fear of getting the affair disclosed to hubby,My in laws dosen't help me in ill health.I love my husband and i will never leave him for anything.How can i seek Redemption;Priest asked me to disclose everything to my hubby as if it is that simple,no man on earth will forgive me for this.How can i save myself from going to hell.I am crying tears of blood.Can anyone of you here forgive your spouse for this,and what will you ask them to do?Trust me ,do anything but cheat on your partner.

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Adaydreambeliever · 56-60, F

I cannot comment on the religious side as I am not of the same religion... it seems to me that while this man is blackmailing you to continue and you worry about him telling your husband... MY worry would be that you are doing real damage to your husband's health and you could even kill him.. Compared to that you confessing you had an affair might seem the lesser of two evils? To have an affair in your country is wrong I understand but I am thinking damaging his health or even killing him is worse?
I think you have to confess.. you have to stop poisoning him... and you have to tell your bf NO... enough.. no more.. finished..Your choice is to tell your husband yourself or to hope that the bf doesn't tell him..

Just to say that yes husband's do forgive .... many of them, especially if he knows you tried to end it and were blackmailed.. I can only hope he forgives you for poisoning him and damaging his health.

Dolimyte · 41-45, M

Wow. You fucked up. There is no good way to get out of this situation. Your lack of morals is sickening to me. I know people make mistakes, but willfully druging your husband is pretty fucking low. I don't believe in karma or hell, just that people have to live with with the consequences of their actions. Your actions are going to have some pretty serious consequences.

prernaarora · 36-40, F

@Dolimyte Language,please

Dolimyte · 41-45, M

@prernaarora you object to my language? They're just words. They don't harm anyone, unlike the things you have done. I stand on the moral highground here, not you.

allsfinebime2 · M

The consequences of your cheating are not the same as trying to cleanse yourself of the guilt that you are carrying personally for cheating. The consequences after you have revealed all to your husband shall come later. Whether good or bad. You cannot allow someone to continue to blackmail you. Good luck.

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