What does it take for someone to end up in your circle of friends?

@AmbivalentFriability Variety is the spice of life. At what part of the process do you start tailoring those requirements?

@1455spd If I'm interested in them, the process begins when they show interest in me.

@AmbivalentFriability And if they don't?

@1455spd My interest might be kept but I won't show it beyond my usual interactions. I think now it's more likely to simply be lost, than it used to be.

I'm going to make an unsolicited book suggestion since I was literally just telling someone else about it:

@AmbivalentFriability Keep bugging me about this book. It's gonna take me a while to get used to the idea I can be freed from all this

@1455spd I shall. You may regret it. 🤔

I find it overwhelming to think of it as "freeing" myself from it. Like "holy fuck that sounds like a lot of work on my part I can never do all that" before I've even started. It's been easier to just look at it as "improving my odds" n making things more bearable.

I'm remembering and being reminded that I am full of little tricks.

I still mostly want to go die in a hole though.

Also the other night I dreamt that I beat up my manager pretty bad.

@AmbivalentFriability I need a constant reminder sometimes too. I wonder why those things are so easy to forget, because yeah, same. I don't even need a hole

In all fairness, your manager sounds like a useless fuckwit that you are powerless to hold accountable. A good ole-fashioned ass-whooping is probably one of your only recourses. You're not a bad person for considering violence. You're a bad person for defaulting to violence regardless of the reason.

@1455spd The human brain can't keep up with itself.

Yeah I'm just trying to hold on until she quits or gets fired.
I was a little surprised at the dream, honestly. I have other violent dreams, but not usually with people I actually know.
I get pretty frustrated and angry sometimes, but I'm not somebody that resorts to violence. Though that may just be because the thought of touching the flesh of a person I don't like makes me cringe. "I'm going to beat your ass but first let me put on some protective surgical gloves" :p

@AmbivalentFriability It just sounds like catharsis. I wouldn't read too much into it. When you gotta deal with someone like that all the time, that frustration builds up and needs a release.

I can picture you now putting on a hazmat suit right before a fight while talking shit to each other. Like when people start taking off clothes in order to be intimidating, except you'd be doing the opposite. It's a funny visual that I probably ruined by explaining it too long

@1455spd ahaha, no it made me laugh. xD