Do you like belly rubs?

@Deadcutie like?

@becca00f in this case belly rubs, I don’t like anyone putting their hands on me.. feet, legs, shoulders nothing..

I feel absolutely disgusted when I’m laying there playing dead and he’s touching me and I literally have to will myself not to slap the shit out of him

@Deadcutie so you dont let your boyfriend touch you

@becca00f not boyfriend, husband.. there is a difference of not liking it and being unable to stop someone from doing it...does he hold my hand? Yes, I still don’t feel comfortable...I’m his slave, I’m his wife, I’m his dead cum bucket, he’s going to touch me.. whenever he wants, however he wants.. even though I don’t enjoy it, I have to act as though I’m disinterested.. like a robot that’s not aware it’s shameful or dirty..I hope that makes sense

@Deadcutie sounds like several rape victimes I know

@becca00f in a way yes.. while I don’t really enjoy his touches, I enjoy the feelings I feel from the sadomasochistic conflict within me.. the awkwardness, shame, humiliation, and disgust I feel as he does these things to me, and my inner self that forces myself to endure them... basicaly I’m getting off on the humiliation, not his actual contact

@Deadcutie thats a hard way to get enjoyment

@becca00f for me it’s axulirating