If you let yourself get hurt so you'd become wiser, does that make you a masochist or just stupid?

@DarkHeaven You should never call yourself stupid even if you think you are or people might hear you and start abusing that word (and you)

@Melpomene I deserve it

@DarkHeaven Would you say that to your best friend or a 10 year old yourself?

@Melpomene I have no RL friends but when I did, they were better than me so the question’s irrelevant. As far as a ten year old me, I barely remember that girl but she was still good. I am not. I deserve far worse.

@DarkHeaven If you think you've become worse over the years, why don't you change what you don't like? It might be a lot of hard work, but you get to ''shape'' yourself into what you want - getting rid of habits you don't like, learning to love good things about you etc.

@Melpomene I had a psychotic break. In the last almost 12 years, I’ve made a lot of progress but I’m nothing like the girl I was for the first 31. I did a lot of damage and it’s hard to forgive myself. I’ll never be the same and I’m trying to come to terms with that too. It’s very tough. This isn’t as easy as a new mind set. I truly wish it was. Sorry. 🖤

@DarkHeaven not to be rude at all but is whatever you did, that was so bad, in a story somewhere? Just curious cuz you seem so vague about it..

@FunReader55 This was my goodbye to my boyfriend at the time but I have not shared the details of everything and that’s not something I’m prepared to do now if ever. ✌️

https://similarworlds.com/32-Personal-Thoughts-Feelings/1845000-A-letter-to-my-Jacob-My-sweetest-love-I-never