@Xuan12 Don't apologize for that. I don't think you are trash at all. Trash don't even realize they are trash, they are too overwhelmed by their delusions of grandeur.
You are one of the few people who gave me well thought out answers, you can see beyond differences, very open minded, you have lot of love in you but you got betrayed when you needed them most, you don't know where to put that energy anymore. And the longer that pain lasts, the more you blame yourself. It's not your fault. There are things we can't change.
@Xuan12 *hugs you forcefully while you deal with mixed feelings* Also it seems like your friends have a lot of nice things to say about you so you is a nice cool boi
@Miram 0_0 That was surprisingly accurate. I didn't think you'd remember those things.
I'm probably just feeling bad today because of, ironically, a good thing I did. A man and woman were getting into a fight, and at first they were just squabbling so I tried to ignore it, not my business. But they got louder and louder. The man started making threatening gestures. I got on my radio and called for backup, but then he got right up in her face. There was no time, so I got between them. I think my uniform made him back down. She said she wanted him away from her, and I didn't even have to say a word. I just looked at him and he left.
She thanked me profusely. Spent like, 15-20 minutes telling me how wonderful I am and how I came at just the right time. But all the praise, it just made me feel bad. Probably because I feel like if I really was so wonderful, I wouldn't be in the position I'm in.
Haha, she doesn't know it either though, but I spent the next hour cruising the a couple blocks around the restaurant she went into, to make sure he didn't come back. 😂
@Xuan12 Yes, it is a good thing. I remember everything when I am doing well mentally. Your actions were meaningful. We aren't our losses nor struggles.
