will you ever be happy?

@Myzery maybe trusting would help.

@appassionata Maybe, but I am not currently in a place that I can afford to do so.

@Myzery you dont lose anything when people discard your trust. they lose.

@appassionata I lose my sanity for a time. I don't have much as it is. 😏
While it may not seem that way reading my B.S. posts, I have managed make progress in my offline life. Not a lot, but it took years to get where I am. I cannot afford to backslide. I have so much left that I need to do to try to get to a new chapter in life or whatever it is that I am supposed to be doing. 😂

@Myzery i have only been on here for 45 minutes or so. so i havent read your posts. maybe the sense that there is 'something' you are 'supposed' to be doing is actually an obstacle itself in your path.

@appassionata Perhaps, but I cannot continue on my current path for long.
Unless I get a better paying job.

@Myzery then you know what needs to be done. the only thing worse than making a decision you dont want to make for your hapiness. is not even knowing you have a decision to make :)