If you knew you die tomorrow would you be sad or relieved?

I would be sad. I'm here at work, instead of spending my final hours with my children and wife. I would be sad, because my youngest just started 1st grade this year, and I will not get to see this amazing young man grow up. I would be sad, because I fear for my three eldest children, because without me, they are at the mercy of their mother's whims, and since the divorce, she's only gotten worse. I would be sad, because I am dying the day AFTER my mother's birthday, and this would kill her.