What a Trip
.... a trip is a journey, an outing, ..or it could mean you stumbled or lose your footing.
My travel to my hometown was beautiful. I traveled through 4 states, 500 miles of colorful trees that were mesmerizing!
My first visit was with a textbook description of a narcissist person, my mother.
Once again the visit ended badly..I'll never learn I guess.
She is so filled with unhappiness and guilt it reflects on her perspective of me and her behavior towards me.
I've grown enough to see and understand this about her.
But my inner child isn't healed...yet!
So when the gaslighting begins... I do try to extinguish it.... but too many times, too many triggers pulled ... I do off.
Then off I go on a trip! Mentally and emotionally I begin to lose my footing..I trip..stumbled and fall..face down.
I've been home for 10days now. Through prayer, meditation, walks, and grounding myself.... I'm out of my head! 馃馃お馃ぃ
I am now present and accounted for 馃榿鉂も湆
My travel to my hometown was beautiful. I traveled through 4 states, 500 miles of colorful trees that were mesmerizing!
My first visit was with a textbook description of a narcissist person, my mother.
Once again the visit ended badly..I'll never learn I guess.
She is so filled with unhappiness and guilt it reflects on her perspective of me and her behavior towards me.
I've grown enough to see and understand this about her.
But my inner child isn't healed...yet!
So when the gaslighting begins... I do try to extinguish it.... but too many times, too many triggers pulled ... I do off.
Then off I go on a trip! Mentally and emotionally I begin to lose my footing..I trip..stumbled and fall..face down.
I've been home for 10days now. Through prayer, meditation, walks, and grounding myself.... I'm out of my head! 馃馃お馃ぃ
I am now present and accounted for 馃榿鉂も湆
61-69, F
