my 'What If' person
I never really intended to fall for him. He’s the type of person who’s friendly to everyone, but when it comes to something serious, he tends to close himself off. At first, I thought that was all there was to him that I’d just be another face in the crowd of people he’s nice to.
But then we started to get closer. We grew comfortable with each other. And every time I was around him, I felt this calmness, this sense of peace I didn’t even know I was longing for. He got me. He understood me, or at least that’s what I believed.
We had so many similarities, from the things we liked to the goals and dreams we hoped to achieve. Being with him sometimes felt like meeting the male version of myself. It was rare, it was grounding, and it was beautiful.
But sometimes, no matter how much something feels right, the universe just doesn’t let it happen. And so instead of being “my person,” he became my what if. What if we were meant for each other? What if the timing was better? What if we had actually been given a chance?
I’ll probably never know the answers. All I know is that for a short moment in time, I found a reflection of myself in someone else and that’s something I’ll never forget.
But then we started to get closer. We grew comfortable with each other. And every time I was around him, I felt this calmness, this sense of peace I didn’t even know I was longing for. He got me. He understood me, or at least that’s what I believed.
We had so many similarities, from the things we liked to the goals and dreams we hoped to achieve. Being with him sometimes felt like meeting the male version of myself. It was rare, it was grounding, and it was beautiful.
But sometimes, no matter how much something feels right, the universe just doesn’t let it happen. And so instead of being “my person,” he became my what if. What if we were meant for each other? What if the timing was better? What if we had actually been given a chance?
I’ll probably never know the answers. All I know is that for a short moment in time, I found a reflection of myself in someone else and that’s something I’ll never forget.
