My swimming story

Im going to start off by stating that it wasnt my parents fault , they tried their best to get me to become an strong swimmer in my childhood , Its not always the parents fault. Dont be so quick to blame other peoples parents. I swam from age 7 up to age 13. In school , we had to swim once every week. I used to give up my lunch times to join an swimming club at school were I just swam for fun. I had lessons once an week at an leisure center. , I dropped out because I didnt believe in myself , I kept thinking I would drown if I swam the whole 6 foot deep pool. I still loved swimming , when I were 11 years old , my grandad took me on an swimming vacaction for one week , then when I were 15 one of my aunts took me on two swimming vactions , I only swam so far in the pool but I loved being in the water. I were diangosed with ocd at age 15. My ocd got that bad I couldnt go swimming anymore. Last year , I worked at an summer camp , I were given campers who always wanted to swim. I would go in but I only stood there. One day whilst it were raining extremely bad , my camper were the only person at camp who wanted to go into the pool. It were just me and him. I swam with him. I dont know why , but he helped me gain my confidence back. I went to thialand last year , not long after , I wrote an story on here about thialand. As soon as I got home , I went to my first swimming lesson as an adult. Im now on my 8th lesson as an adult , which translates to just under one month of lessons , Im swimming without floation devices , im determind to swim the whole pool and back , I know I can do it , I got half way then I swam back , my instructor keeps pushing me to do it. I really should be joining the gym to practice outside of lessons , I just need the confidence to sign up. My mental health is an lot better , swimming is now helping my mental health as in reducing depression ,although ocd still effects swimming because of the intrusive thoughts but I have to make sure it doesnt beat me.