I Am Happy
I've found my joy again, I was thinking about the past and realized that it no longer hurts me, the wound that would not heal, has finally been healed..Took two years, but I've regained my innocents again, and I'm really really truly happy that my schizoaffective disorder finally went into remission, for the most part......But I can still hear heavenly angels singing whenever I wish to hear them sing...I'm still a little bit lonely, for I've lost all of my friends and my old family doctor but I can live with that...I now have a new family doctor, a woman with a great last name, love her name, it's cute, I have all sorts of ailments that she can look into, such as a couple of blockages in my leg and neck, in my arteries, and I need an allergy test done, for I broke out in hives last week and have been scratching my itches all week...And she is sending my son to see a doctor in the city who can prescribe him medical marijuana for his epilepsy...better for him to do it legally plus know what he is getting rather than the street drug....All in all I'm happy with her...Though I'm not too sure if I should tell her what happened with my last family doctor, and what the undercovers did to me and him by bringing a false prophet into the mix to spread accusations half truths and lies about me...Nothing of improtance anyways, just another satanic attack upon my character which could have caused my old family doctor to fall at my expense....I still see him at the hospital from time to time, and look I have peace of mind and peace within my soul plus I can still hear angels singing, he may not be my family doctor anymore, and I may have gotten to see his true colors under pressure, he's a little rough around the edges, quick tempered, and a lewd ass bugger, but from what I hear he has always had poor bedside manners......So in the end even though he may not like me because his mind has been blinded, I think I still like him in the end, awe heck, he's a jerk, but ya gotta love him. What matters is that my schizoaffective went into remission, and I'm sure I've found a nicer doctor, which I really needed, I can bare my old doctors shitty personaltity, and accept him for who he is, but I think it will be a nice change, to have a female doctor who is nice....
Whenever I look back at all that happened in the past with my schizoaffective disorder, and the demon possession, and the false prophet, and exploitation, and the oppression, I think to myself.....Is that all you got satan????? I'm pretty sure that I can be in the same room with my old family doctor and like him and have him treat me just fine...Which is all that I ever wanted, sure he might hurt me by saying something rude, or offensive, he may even try to betray me, and talk behind my back, but I've always treated him good, and he knows that all the evil was done by the spirit of Jezebel and the false prophet, We were just it's victims, and now we have overcome, and our wounds have healed, and now I am finally truly joyful once again, and I love it....Just in time for Christmas, woot woot! I should have a talk with him, now that my mind is clear and my spirit is free, true I still have schizoaffective disorder, and can still hear the demons but I am not possessed, nor am I traumatized...And I can see so clearly now.....the worst that could happen is that he doesn't want to hear about it, which is fine, I'm over it....I suppose I just shouldn't look back. So here I am here in this moment, I have my family with me, I am so in love with my husband, It is well with my soul, and for that I am grateful.
Whenever I look back at all that happened in the past with my schizoaffective disorder, and the demon possession, and the false prophet, and exploitation, and the oppression, I think to myself.....Is that all you got satan????? I'm pretty sure that I can be in the same room with my old family doctor and like him and have him treat me just fine...Which is all that I ever wanted, sure he might hurt me by saying something rude, or offensive, he may even try to betray me, and talk behind my back, but I've always treated him good, and he knows that all the evil was done by the spirit of Jezebel and the false prophet, We were just it's victims, and now we have overcome, and our wounds have healed, and now I am finally truly joyful once again, and I love it....Just in time for Christmas, woot woot! I should have a talk with him, now that my mind is clear and my spirit is free, true I still have schizoaffective disorder, and can still hear the demons but I am not possessed, nor am I traumatized...And I can see so clearly now.....the worst that could happen is that he doesn't want to hear about it, which is fine, I'm over it....I suppose I just shouldn't look back. So here I am here in this moment, I have my family with me, I am so in love with my husband, It is well with my soul, and for that I am grateful.
