I Have a Question
Is there anyone out there who's looking for a different experience of life - maybe a deeper, truer connection to Self and Others? Maybe a calmer life without so many worries and concerns about where relationships are headed and what dangers the future might hold?
In the beginning, it was the agendas and strategies of my parents who, doing the best job of parenting they knew, began teaching me, with their system of rewards and punishments, the "right" way of acting and perceiving the world. It was necessary for me to turn away from my own inherent guidance system to accommodate THEIR needs so THEY would feel better. I quickly learned to comply with their demands to maintain my vital connection with them. So, for the sake of my own survival, I learned to people-please and rescue others from their pain. There was no thinking about it, it was simply how I was socialized, molded into the person THEY needed for me to be. Again, the only problem was, in being the rescuer, I had to turn away from my truth-aligned inner voice, and abandon my natural connection to God, Source, Christ Consciousness, Buddha Nature, Higher Power - whatever you wish to call it, through which I am authentically Me.
That connection was replaced by an impostor - the obedient representative of me, the ego/identity me, the survivor. It was the only "Me" I knew, so I thought it was who I truly was, and I got very good at portraying who I was trained and expected to be.
(Can anyone (or everyone) relate to this?)
These days, my method of navigating through this world is quite different. It's a practice of mindfulness and self-actualization, but it is hardly without receiving frequent and sometimes very strong callings and invitations from the representative, survivor me. I recognize its invitations through my "negative" reactions when something doesn't go the way I want, when something feels unfair to me and I feel entitled to something. I feel the calling of the old paradigm when I feel cheated, when someone lies to me or steals from me, or acts in a way that tells me they see no value in me.
I've gotten far enough into the practice of living life deliberately, rather than by default, as the old fight-or-flight survival system would have me do, that, rather than seeing myself as "damaged goods," and beating up myself, or someone else, I see my reactions as indicators of where I need to make corrections. I'm learning that the sooner I get conscious of my reactions, the less momentum of the old programming there is to stop, and the more responsive I can be to the situation. This ultimately feels much better than staying with reaction and letting my feelings get the best of me. Anger is NOT a healthy emotion to hang on to, but I've found it to be a great indicator which tells me I need to make a change.
In my search for a shift from my old, and ever-so-well established wrestle-it-to-the-ground-and-kill-it survival strategy, to a much more promising and better feeling connection to my True Self, I'm wanting to share these ideas and experiences with other people, people of like mind and intent. I'm wanting to find people who are interested in growing THROUGH their conditioning and seemingly unrelenting survival strategies and agendas, which have left them wondering why they can't find the life they would love to have - why they can't find the relationship they know they want, the prosperity they have a sense is there, but which somehow remains out of reach.
I'm launching this post as an invitation. I want to make connections with people who are looking for a more satisfying life of experiencing connection to the love, kindness and compassion they truly and essentially are - people who are willing to take an honest look at how they may be operating their lives on the basis of flawed premises, and who have an interest and willingness to consider a strategy that's more profitable, and ever so much more progressive and rewarding.
It would be great to get a conversation going about this - to hear from people who dare to take a look how they crave satisfaction but rarely seem to have it - to look, not with judgement or criticism, but simply with the mechanics of how we come to be who we are and do what we do, or not - to have what we have, or not, and why.
Your personal success, and all that entails, is available to you. What conditioning, programs, beliefs, habits are you hanging onto that keep YOU from being available to IT?
I'm eager to hear from you.
With Love . . .
In the beginning, it was the agendas and strategies of my parents who, doing the best job of parenting they knew, began teaching me, with their system of rewards and punishments, the "right" way of acting and perceiving the world. It was necessary for me to turn away from my own inherent guidance system to accommodate THEIR needs so THEY would feel better. I quickly learned to comply with their demands to maintain my vital connection with them. So, for the sake of my own survival, I learned to people-please and rescue others from their pain. There was no thinking about it, it was simply how I was socialized, molded into the person THEY needed for me to be. Again, the only problem was, in being the rescuer, I had to turn away from my truth-aligned inner voice, and abandon my natural connection to God, Source, Christ Consciousness, Buddha Nature, Higher Power - whatever you wish to call it, through which I am authentically Me.
That connection was replaced by an impostor - the obedient representative of me, the ego/identity me, the survivor. It was the only "Me" I knew, so I thought it was who I truly was, and I got very good at portraying who I was trained and expected to be.
(Can anyone (or everyone) relate to this?)
These days, my method of navigating through this world is quite different. It's a practice of mindfulness and self-actualization, but it is hardly without receiving frequent and sometimes very strong callings and invitations from the representative, survivor me. I recognize its invitations through my "negative" reactions when something doesn't go the way I want, when something feels unfair to me and I feel entitled to something. I feel the calling of the old paradigm when I feel cheated, when someone lies to me or steals from me, or acts in a way that tells me they see no value in me.
I've gotten far enough into the practice of living life deliberately, rather than by default, as the old fight-or-flight survival system would have me do, that, rather than seeing myself as "damaged goods," and beating up myself, or someone else, I see my reactions as indicators of where I need to make corrections. I'm learning that the sooner I get conscious of my reactions, the less momentum of the old programming there is to stop, and the more responsive I can be to the situation. This ultimately feels much better than staying with reaction and letting my feelings get the best of me. Anger is NOT a healthy emotion to hang on to, but I've found it to be a great indicator which tells me I need to make a change.
In my search for a shift from my old, and ever-so-well established wrestle-it-to-the-ground-and-kill-it survival strategy, to a much more promising and better feeling connection to my True Self, I'm wanting to share these ideas and experiences with other people, people of like mind and intent. I'm wanting to find people who are interested in growing THROUGH their conditioning and seemingly unrelenting survival strategies and agendas, which have left them wondering why they can't find the life they would love to have - why they can't find the relationship they know they want, the prosperity they have a sense is there, but which somehow remains out of reach.
I'm launching this post as an invitation. I want to make connections with people who are looking for a more satisfying life of experiencing connection to the love, kindness and compassion they truly and essentially are - people who are willing to take an honest look at how they may be operating their lives on the basis of flawed premises, and who have an interest and willingness to consider a strategy that's more profitable, and ever so much more progressive and rewarding.
It would be great to get a conversation going about this - to hear from people who dare to take a look how they crave satisfaction but rarely seem to have it - to look, not with judgement or criticism, but simply with the mechanics of how we come to be who we are and do what we do, or not - to have what we have, or not, and why.
Your personal success, and all that entails, is available to you. What conditioning, programs, beliefs, habits are you hanging onto that keep YOU from being available to IT?
I'm eager to hear from you.
With Love . . .
