I Have Been Hypnotized
I believe my mother drugged me, hypnotized me and interrogated me when I was a child back in the 1950s. I believe this happened a number of times over the years. I have many good reasons to believe this.
The effects have lasted but are fading away, which makes it easier to remember the little I do remember.
She terrorized me during these interrogations. The threats she spoke literally echo through my mind at times and find their way into my dreams. When I first began talking about my mother, her people (elite deviants and diehard Stalinists from the old Communist Party) and what had gone on in my life, and when I first began writing about it anonymously online like this, I would get headaches, allergic reactions and anxiety attacks. And I would hear threatening deep voice sounds telling me I was in trouble, in danger.
Much of that has worn off, but I still hear voices threatening me late at night when I have been posting things like this.
I have a friend who recommended a therapist who can hypnotize me to attempt to erase this earlier drug induced hypnosis. But if I attempt to do this, it could destabilize me or cause anxiety to resurface.
Should I try that route? Or just hope the problem fades away? I know others besides my mother have done this interrogation thing on me a few times over the years. I want it to stop so if I knew what words or signals they used, I would be in a better position to resist future attempts to drug and hypnotize me.
The effects have lasted but are fading away, which makes it easier to remember the little I do remember.
She terrorized me during these interrogations. The threats she spoke literally echo through my mind at times and find their way into my dreams. When I first began talking about my mother, her people (elite deviants and diehard Stalinists from the old Communist Party) and what had gone on in my life, and when I first began writing about it anonymously online like this, I would get headaches, allergic reactions and anxiety attacks. And I would hear threatening deep voice sounds telling me I was in trouble, in danger.
Much of that has worn off, but I still hear voices threatening me late at night when I have been posting things like this.
I have a friend who recommended a therapist who can hypnotize me to attempt to erase this earlier drug induced hypnosis. But if I attempt to do this, it could destabilize me or cause anxiety to resurface.
Should I try that route? Or just hope the problem fades away? I know others besides my mother have done this interrogation thing on me a few times over the years. I want it to stop so if I knew what words or signals they used, I would be in a better position to resist future attempts to drug and hypnotize me.
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